Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Let The Battle Begin!!!!

Well I have finally decided to get serious with my battle with the bulge!!!! I am sick and tired of being this big, no I'm not going to reveal how big I am, I am disgusted at how big I have gotten and can't bring myself to let any one else know!!! Not even my husband David knows my weight! Lets just say I would like to, no, I WILL LOOSE, about 4 or 5 dress sizes!!! I have really good reason's to loose the weight...

*My health. I have been having back pain, my knee packs up on occasion, worried about stroke & heart attack!

*My children. I want to see then grow up and have kids of their own. I want to be able to play with them with out getting tired after about ten minutes!!!! I want to be able to run around with them and have fun!

*My husband. I want to be more attractive and sexier for my husband, who by the way is skinny and as fit as you can be! He loves me as I am, but is being very supportive as he is worried about my health as well.

*Clothes!!!! I love clothes!!!! But when you are my size you have a limited selection of nice clothes, VERY LIMITED!!!! I want to wear stunning dresses and look good in jeans. Some of the clothes I see make me cry because they are so cute and I am WAY TO BIG for them!

*My self esteem. My self esteem is so low and I have no confidence in my self. Hate going out in public because I think people are talking about "the fat lady", ME!!!

*Not to mention my wedding photos!!! I hate the tummy bulge you can see in the photos!!!! I tried this dress on so many times before the day, and I never once saw the bulge, I thought I looked great in it!!! It wasn't until I saw the photos and nearly died of embarrassment!!! I wish I worn a different dress, or some suck me in underwear!!!!

I started taking meal replacement shakes for breakfast and lunch yesterday, even got myself a smaller dinner plate so that I have a smaller meal at dinner time. Got lots of fruit and vegetables that I am allowed to snack on. Even did exercise!!!!! I am truly serious this time and I WILL BE A SIZE 16 BY CHRISTMAS!!!!! I really wanted to put 14 or 12 but I know I am always going to have big thighs and a butt, it's just my body shape, but a 16 for me would be fantastic! But as long as I'm healthy and feel more positive about myself that is the main thing!
Wish me luck my friends!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Ashley's 21st

My sister-in-law Ashley turns 21 today, she decided she didin't want a big party so I invited her, her partner Andrew and daughter Skye around for dinner tonight, told her she wasn't allowed to cook or do dishes on her birthday. I wanted to make a special cake for her and as she loves chocolate cake that is what I made, but I spent the last week making chocolate roses to decorate it..

Having two nearly 40 degree days I couldn't make any on those days as the chocolate mixture just got to soft, but I got a few made. A very fiddly job but not to bad. Samantha and Spencer hung around like flies wanting the chololate! They are made from a mixture made up of chocolate and glucose syrup. Here is the end result...Hopefully she likes it!

Friday, January 9, 2009

Here's Another One

Yeah Yeah I know, you are all sick of these...

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Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Greatest Find Ever!!!

I have been looking for a birthday invitation for Samantha's birthday, yes I know it is in April and I have plenty of time, but I can't help it, I'm organised!!! I hadn't been able to find one until I decided to look on Ebay the other day and found a lady, Alanna, who does digital scrapbooking invitations and I ordered one and this is the end result....

It made me cry when I saw the end result. Alanna did an amazing job and I can't wait to give them out, in about 3 months time!!!

Friday, January 2, 2009

Yes...Another Smilebox Creation

Sorry guys, I can't help myself with Smilebox! I'm having so much fun with it!!! I'm sure I'll get sick of it soon...MAYBE!Don't count on it. But I will run out of photos to use.
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