Our Little Fairy

Samantha has a new favourite thing... The Fairies!!!

She has a couple of dvd's of these girls, they have there own tv programme over here and she LOVES THEM!!!! I have to admit I love them as well LOL.

I have tried to add a little video of her dancing but I haven't been able to make it work so I will try again on a future post.

She loves them so much I decided to make her a fairy dress so she could dance around in it, but I got a bit carried away and ended up making 2 skirts and a dress....

I haven't got a photo of her in my favourite skirt, the one on the right in the above picture, but I will get soon. She is adorable in the dress below but has realised that I have sewn beads onto the bodice and tries to pull them off....


This blue skirt I bought so she could have something to wear while I made the other skirts, as I thought I would take a while, but I ended up making them in one morning..

The wings were bought for her by her Nana Ree, isn't she just adorable! She would watch the dvd's all day long if she had her way, she constantly (well nearly constantly) says "more fairies", but I keep it down to once or twice a day at the most, so that she doesn't get to sick of them. I am definitely planning for a fairy themed party for her 3rd birthday next year!!!

Mother's Day Picnic

Hi everybody. I am feeling much better today! We had a wonderful weekend, and I had the best Mother's Day I think I have ever had!!! Spencer and David started the day by making bacon and corn fritters, one of my childhood foods, and they were YUMMY!!!!! (so much so David wants them for his breakfast in bed for his birthday on Sunday!). Spen and Samantha gave me two necklaces and some bath bombs that I wanted, lots of hugs, kisses and cuddles, exactly what every mum wants and needs.

We headed to the Upper Yarra Dam Reserve for an early picnic lunch at around 11am. This place is one of my favourite places ever! It is so peaceful and serene...

We had a great lunch, carrot and cheese sticks with two dips, mini chocolate doughnuts with whipped cream, choc-dipped strawberries, strawberries and drinks. Simple but oh so YUMMY!!!

The kids ran around and a ball. I also got some lovely photos of everyone, I especially wanted some of me with the kids, as I am usually the one behind the camera, I don't have many of me with anyone so this was my chance...

I even got a nice photo of David and myself taken by my lovely son Spencer.....

A great time was had by all. We came home so that Samantha could have a nap before we headed out again to have an early dinner with David's mum and the other family members. We had pizza at a park down by the Yarra river (dumb me left camera at home!), and I even made amends with Angela!! I said I was sorry, even though I don't feel I have anything to apologize for, but I'm sick of the tension and the silent treatment, I mean we do have a wedding coming up! Any way Angela ended up in tears and said everything was forgotten, David is very relieved, and I feel a bit calmer! It was an amazing mother's day thanks to my gorgeous children and my wonderful partner David xxxx

Oh speaking of wedding, my brother Kelvin and my sister Diane in New Zealand have booked their flights over, yippee, makes it all seem more real now, and makes me feel a tad nervous, but excited!!! I tried my dress, shoes, and jewellery on just before, and Samantha came in and said "cute mummy" which really made my day, I nearly cried!

To finish off with I have to show you the handkerchief that Davids step-mother Maree made me for the wedding, it's gorgeous....

I haven't worked out how one carries a handkerchief as a bride but I will work something out I'm sure. My sister Diane came up with a brilliant idea to do with the "something blue" a bride has to wear, as I don't want to wear a garter (not on my fat leg), she suggested threading blue ribbon through the edging on the hankie, a great idea I thought! So I now have the something old, my dress, something new, my earrings and bracelet, something borrowed, the necklace and something blue.

Still Breathing.. Inhale...Ex-hale

Yes I am still here, taking deep breaths all day to get me through the days. Angela still not talking to me, yet I still found it in myself to be gracious and include my kids in a grandchild photo for her for mother's day tomorrow. I really wanted to say to Kim that "why should I when she isn't even talking to us", but if none of this had happened I would have thought it to be a lovely idea so I took (another) deep breath and said yes, they could even do at my house. This is the photo we ended up with....

From left to right we have Spencer and Samantha, Jessica (the golden one) and Skye. Jessica's mum and dad informed us the other day that they are expecting their 2nd child in December.

Having some serious issues with Spencer at the moment, ok if I'm honest we have had them since we moved here, and slightly milder before I moved over to Australia. He has never really shown me respect and that has gotten worse and now he argues with us, answers back to us, gets very angry indeed and has now started swearing at his teacher!! We have asked his dad if can help us sort him out, not that he can do much from NZ but he is Spen's idol and just knowing that his dad knows exactly what he is up to may curb some of the bad behaviour. It is getting to the point that we fight almost every day and I end up in tears at least once a week. The last couple of weeks have been really bad and I'm desperately fighting some serious depression!!! I don't want to get out of bed in the mornings and feel like I'm walking on tip toes waiting to break down at the slightest thing, not a nice feeling. But as I said I'm fighting it! I'm standing on the edge of the black hole, and hopefully can give it the finger and walk away from it soon. We have planned a picnic tomorrow for Mother's day, just me, David and the kids, Spen helped me prepare most of it this evening, we had a good time together.

I would love to share with you what we are having for picnic but I will wait until my next post so I can include photos as well.

To all mums out there, have a wonderful Mother's Day and love your kids with all your heart because who knows how long we have them for. And to my mum... I miss you so very much and I love you from the bottom of my heart xxx You have made me the person I am today and I thank you for everything you have done for me over the last 36 years.